Thursday, June 23, 2011
I have know about Margaret Dave, and Alexis for some time. I learned about their home, winery, and pieces of their story through my friend Susan. I attended a wine tasting at Alexis's house about a year ago and knew Margaret had written a book about her life. I looked at one store for the book a long time ago and when it was not there I simply forgot.
I am not a big reader. I read blogs and short articles. I can read medical reports, and studies with the best of them but books........? I am pretty sure I have not sat down and read a book from cover to cover in the 13 years I have been a mother.
However, after Shawn and Susan's wedding I was given a copy of "Remembering Alexis, Finding Perspective in Love and Loss" I was excited to finally have it in my hands but was unsure when I would find the time to sit down and read it.
Last night I finished it..... cover to cover.
I am in awe of this mothers journey. Not just because she is a mother of a special needs child but because her story and mine are so much alike in many ways. She wrote about her struggles with her childhood, struggles with relationships, struggles with meeting the needs of her other child, struggles with her identity, and the struggle for true happiness.
The physical happenings of her life are very different then mine but her attitude and emotion, her commitment and understanding, and her unwavering willingness to fight an uphill battle to make a place in this world for her special child, reminds me so much of my journey with Makenzie.
I cried, I laughed, and I thought long and hard about certain parts of my life. I was reminded by Alexis's life and death, through the words of her mother, how much of a miracle Makenzie is. I was given renewed strength knowing that even though this life is not what I would have chosen, is it rich and full. This life that God has given me is more then I could have ever dreamed for myself.
I don't remember Margaret's exact words at Shawn and Susan's wedding but what I did take away from her toast was that God only gives the gift of children like Alexis to a few people and there is a reason for that.
The privilege and honor is mine! Makenzie I am so proud to be your mommy! You are one amazing little girl!
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