Friday, November 26, 2010

Slowly

Yesterday, before dinner there was a lot of laughter and conversation. This year however we were missing my brothers wife and my little brother who is teaching in Korea.

In the next few weeks our family will grow by 2 but until then mommy is on strict bed rest!  I am so excited to meet my niece and nephew. The stress of preterm labor is slowly fading each day as the babies get bigger and stronger! Every day they have not been born is quite a gift!

Ok, back to my point....I got to talking to my sister in law's mom. We talked about how great it was for my sister in law to have some help while my brother was busy at work (considering she can't get out of bed!) and I told her about my decision to finally hire someone to help me around the house. As a single mother, she was so very understanding and totally got why I could not do it alone anymore! I told her that I needed to work on being more productive while our nanny was here but at the moment it felt so good to just rest.

Her comment that followed made my day! She looked up and said something like .... it will come. Right now you NEED to take time and recover from the last 3 years. Give it some time!...... She hit the nail right on the head! It was just what I needed to hear. It is the simple understanding words of this kind of support and encouragement  that pick this tired mommy up  so she can keep going! Thank you!

When I hired our nanny I was at a breaking point. I felt like any moment everything was going to come crashing down. The sky was most defiantly falling Chicken Little!

I do need some time to recover and rest.... not just the weekend...

This has been a process and slowly I begin to surface. Slowly, I am beginning to feel human again. Slowly, I am beginning to enjoy life in a way that I have so been missing. I am not all the way there yet but I can feel some of the weight lifting.... slowly! God is so good!

Today I partook in Black Friday. It was so cold and the lines were so long but I did manage to get some great deals..... never mind the cold and the lines... I don't have the patients for that.....  I got my deals in my pj's with the left click of my mouse. I was so warm, my kids we tucked snugly in there beds and I sat at my computer drinking coffee, listening to music, buying all the bargains my little heart desired! I think I am starting to really embrace this black Friday thing! How about you?

I also managed to clean out a couple closets this afternoon. Let me tell you how many interesting things you find when you do such a thing.... WOW! When I was done... ok I am not all the way done yet but Makenzie was done with my antics  for the day..... it felt so good to see the floor of my closet and the bags full of stuff I would no longer have to look at ever again! Yippy!



Slowly I will dig out of the last 3 years. I will get to all of the stuff  I have not had the time or energy to even attempt to accomplish! Slowly!

This morning the boys left for the cabin with grandma and grandpa so tonight after my closet adventure Makenzie and I cuddled on the couch and watched a movie. Now my house is quiet and I think I am going to try to finish what I started! Wish me luck!

Believe... Prayer Works!

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