Sunday, October 24, 2010

New Life

Today we celebrated life. Two very anticipated little lives. Baby showers are so much fun. Way to much estrogen in one room, cake, and most importantly presents! My niece and nephew are going to be such a gift!

It was so much fun to sit and talk about what it is life to take care of a baby. To compare stories about labor, sleepless nights, and breastfeeding. To see all the new stuff that has come out in the last 5 years and to oh and awe over how itty bitty the little clothes are! It is even more fun to listen to first time moms talk to each other. I just sat back and smiled.

After thirteen years I can still remember my first and how I felt. I look back and laugh because life was so simple then. Babies are so much easier then back talking, know it all, emotional, and passionate, 13 year old's. 13 year old's are a lot of fun too but much harder as the "problems" become so much more complex then deciding whether to use cloth or disposable diapers,bottle or breast, co sleeping or crib,  or if the baby should have a pacifier or not.

I have had babies on my heart and mind for a long time. I have 4 kids and need another like I need a hole in my head but for some reason I feel the urge for another. No one needs to be worried.... LOL.... it is not happening now or in the near... like for at least 10 ish years... but I am hoping one day my home will be a place full of bouncy chairs, swings, rattles, pacifiers, and tethers.

I have heard from other parents who have had their youngest child suffer a serious injury that having another is very therapeutic. Only God's knows if this is the road my life will travel once again some day and I am ok waiting for a good long time to find out the answer!

Before Makenzie's accident we did foster care for a few years.  I learned so much of the system during that experience and had no clue one day I would need that very information for my own baby. I look back on that time and realize how good God is and also how perfect his plan for my life is. I have thought about doing foster care again one day and taking in children with special needs. Children that most do not want or don't know how to care for. Children that need a voice and lots of services. I have realized that having a baby someday may not mean "having" a baby.

For tonight and for like the next 10 years I will have to love on my other babies! The ones I get to spoil and love on with out EVER having to be the bad guy! For today that fills the void I feel in my heart!

Believe.... Prayer Works and Miracles Happen!

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