Thursday, October 14, 2010

iSpeak



About 3 years ago Makenzie was in the midst of a PT session. I was observing while Makenzie bounced on the ball with her therapist. All of the sudden Makenzie let out this loud noise. It was not a cry or a laugh. It was unlike anything I had heard since Makenzie's accident. Both her therapist and I looked at Makenzie and then at each other.

"Did you hear that?" we both exclaimed!

Up until that moment Makenzie was either silent or crying. After that she made the babbling noise a couple more times before her PT left and then again the next day and every day to come. My first thought in the moment was soon Makenzie would turn those sounds into words and before long she would be a little chatter box again. Now, as with so many other things Makenzie, we would just wait for that moment to come.

Three years later I am still waiting. Makenzie babbles all the time with many more sounds. It is still music to my ears but still no consistent words. She tries so hard but nothing comes out sounding like language.

Over the last 18 months Makenzie has been learning to use a "talker". For a long time before that however I would have nothing to do with any kind of communication device. My daughter was going to learn to speak and that was all there was too it. One day I caved in and allowed a speech therapist to come and do an evaluation and I am so glad that I did.

On April 15th 2009, For the first time in 2 years Makenzie was able to tell us what she wanted and liked. I wrote about her first session with her current Speech therapist here. It did not sound like my Makenzie but she was so very proud that she could "speak". I was proud too!

There is still however the part of me that wants so much more. As I watched Makenzie today during speech therapy working so hard at pushing her switch I was again a bit sad. She is so very smart. She has so much to say. I want to hear her voice. I want to her the fluctuation between happy and sad, scared and safe, excited and bummed. I want to hear words that we all take for granted like yes, no, mommy, hungry, thirsty, hurt, tired, sad, and happy.

Maybe one day Makenzie will speak again. I trust and hope in God's healing powers and plan.

But for now this will work for a simple 4 word phrase......



I LOVE YOU MOMMY!

Oh Makezie...... I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!

Believe... Prayer Works

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