Sunday, September 26, 2010

Simple Moments

Today after a busy day, Makenzie and I cuddled up in bed. Makenzie was in her super soft fuzzy footy pajamas and just melted into my chest. The light from my phone charger was shining just right onto the wall. The shadows caught Makenzie's eye and she stared with much curiosity. So she and I played with our shadows.I waved, made shapes, we counted our fingers forward and backwards and sund little bunny Fu Fu.. Makenzie giggled so hard. I can remember playing with my shadow as a child and now I was doing it with my daughter.

It felt so simple. So comforting.

The other day when we were at dinner I was unloading the back of the van so  I could lay Makenzie down and change her diaper. Out of the corner of my eye I caught a couple and their 3 children. Both mom and dad had a baby on their hip and mom was holding tight onto her 3ish year old son's hand. I am not sure why I stopped what I was doing to watch them but I did.

As they walked across the parking lot I heard the mother talking to her son. They passed a Hummer and the mother observed out loud how big that car was. Her son replied with a very big smile and a nod of his head. Just as they arrived at their car she reminded him that he had a toy car just like it at home. Then the family loaded up and drove away.

It seemed so simple. So happy. It brought me back to a time not so long ago when I was having the same kind of conversations with my sons. Now I was in the parking lot changing my 5 year olds diaper. I felt jealous. I want that back. I want things to be simple. I want to relish in the things in life that slip by to fast. I want an easy button. I want more all cuddled up in bed shadow chasing moments with my kids.  So...........

Today I hired a nanny! She starts on Tuesday.

Shadow chasing simple moments here we come. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted. I feel lighter. I am still praying for financial means to make this work but I am trusting it will happen. I need some tangible relief. I need moments.  I will get it next week!

"Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces. I cried out to the LORD in my suffering, and he heard me. He set me free from all my fears."  (Psalm 34:5-6, NLT)

Believe... Prayer Works!


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