Friday, September 17, 2010

Oh Me, Oh My

Do you ever feel angry about something but not really know where to go with that feeling?

Today one of the school district employees whom I have dealt with for about a year showed up at the school to see how Makenzie was doing. We got to talking and he told me that on Monday Makenzie needed to come to school alone. Hmmmmmm.  Here comes angry..... and concern.

But where do you direct the anger and concerns? There are so many people involved. To make a list... cause I am good at that we will start with the teacher, then comes the aid, special ed teacher, OT, PT, SLP, Mental health (what ever that is) art teacher, music teacher, tec teacher, library teacher, gym teacher, nurse. substitutes, AT team, brain injury team ( the team we have still have yet to meet in over 2 years of school ), the lower district people, and the higher district people.

These are all people who have control over Makenzie's education, and most of them have daily contact with my daughter.

I told him I didn't really feel comfortable with leaving yet as there were still  concerns I had, some of them being safety issues. When I am ready I will leave. When I am ready not when a group of people who have known Makenzie for 3 weeks think they are ready. They have done a GREAT job and I can tell they love Makenzie but there are still things that are not working for me. Such as....

Photo Sharing - Video Sharing - Photo Printing

See Makenzie.... way in the back..... yeah..... not ok! I took that picture today after they told me they were ready and knew what Makenzie needed. This picture of the class, in circle time singing a song, shows me differently. This happens to be Makenzie's favorite activity in the world. She LOVES to sing and if she can dance and move it makes it all the better. So why she is sitting still, on her own little island away from all of her friends is beyond my understanding.

If the simple stuff is hard, how am I to trust that the harder stuff is going to get taken care of? I was told today that I don't need to fight every battle. I am sure it was said with the best of intentions but....  when Makenzie can come home and tell me her feelings were hurt because she felt left out, or her legs hurt because she walked to much, or her tummy hurt and she threw up, or she colored with the red crayon but really wanted the blue crayon but her aide couldn't understand what she wanted because she has no way to consistently communicate her needs at school, then and only then will I stop fighting every SINGLE battle. I will not stop advocating for my daughter and will also not apologize for doing so.

When we got home I sat down with Makenzie and cuddled. Oh did that ever feel good. I was expecting a call from her teacher and I waited. I was starting to think she was not going to call when the phone rang. We talked.... for a LONG time. We talked about what happened, we talked about what my concerns were, we talked about solutions to the concerns, we got way off topic a few times, and in the end I absolutly LOVE Makenzie's teacher. I loved her before but now I know without a doubt Makenzie is in just the right place.

After  that I called the principle and asked him to please ask the district to have Makenzie  removed  from the said district worker's case load. This man cares deeply for Makenzie. He has said so and I believe him but this is not working. He doesn't understand me and I don't get him. His job description is not even with a child Makenzie's age. He asked to continue with her and they allowed it. Not gonna work.

So together the principle and I came up with some ideas. We compromised and in the end all parties are safe and happy. Did it really have to  be that hard?

After that I got a call from my auto insurance company to tell me that my insurance had gone into cancellation. This confuses me because I have made every payment. I had added a van and removed a truck about 2 months ago. It took me three times of calling to get the truck taken off the policy and the premiuim had to be retro acted. When I talked to the agent earlier this week he told me everything was fine. All was well.

Today however, all was not well and by 5:15pm they were still demanding over 4 times what the bill was to re instate the coverage. I made them go over everything about 10 times before they finally conceded that it was an agent error and then put me on hold for another 20 mins to consult with a supervisor to fix the issue. According to the supervisor all is well. Not sure I believe that and am a bit scared to drive until Monday.

My head hurts, I am exhausted but with some persistence I was able to resolve all of our issues... for today! It was VERY time consuming and nothing else got done around the house which stinks but oh well.

Tomorrow is a new day.

"Dear brothers and sisters, whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy. For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything."

(James 1:2-4, NLT)

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Anonymous said...

Can I just say that you amaze me? I don't know how you do everything you do. I don't know how you do part of what you do. Simply amazing. Your kids are so blessed to have you in their corner.
I hope that some December you can meet up with us in Memphis so that we can all meet you.

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