Thursday, February 25, 2010


I want my motivation back!

I do not know what stole it and I am not sure when but I want it back.

I constantly say to myself that life is going to slow down soon but it just doesn't. I am pretty sure that it wont anytime soon.

To some degree I am ok with this busyness because if I wasn't busy I would be bored out of my mind.


I need some balance. If I take time for myself my house goes to the birds, if I don't take that time however I feel subhuman.

I need some balance. If I do everything that Makenzie needs in the evening the boys don't get what they need from me, but if I don't do Makenzie's night time routine she is out of sync and doesn't function as well the next day.

I need some balance. If I don't go to bed on time I feel like a train wreck in the morning and tired through out the day, but if I go to bed too early I don't get enough peace and quiet and I feel like the walls are closing in on me.

What it all boils down to is that there is about 5 hours too few in a day.

We all need balance between work and play.

This for me is the hardest part about taking care of my very special child. For almost 3 years now I have been juggling this balance. Kids, therapy, house work, me time, school activities, sports, and not enough time. Sometimes it is easy...smooth sailing, some days it is hard....almost too hard.

Tonight as I threw the balls in the air and started to juggle the dishes and laundry there was mysteriously no water. No big deal right... I didn't want to do them anyways right?

I really didn't, but then I had to juggle some more because a few minutes later a guy from the water company came to the door and told me that it would be a few hours before the water would be turned back on. CRAP! No biggy right.... other then the fact that I still needed to make Makenzie's formula. For that I need WATER!

Juggle, Juggle, Juggle, Juggle! Tonight I feel like I am about to drop all of the balls.

I know that I wont but it sure feels that way right now!

So tonight I will fold the laundry that is already clean, pick up a bit and know that tomorrow is a new day!

Believe...Prayer Works!!!

"Surely God is my help: the Lord is the one who sustains me." (Psalm 54:4, NIV)

"Our present troubles are quite small and won't last very long. Yet they produce for us an immeasurably great glory that will last forever!" (2 Corinthians 4:17)

Dear Lord,
There are times when the troubles we face seem overwhelming and when the future seems to hold no hope. Thank you for this reminder that what we are facing in this day is quite small and won't last very long compared to the immeasurably great glory that will last forever. Thank you that you have made a way for every member of this family to tap into your everlasting glory. Thank you that your love transcends our present struggles and will carry us through. And thank you, Lord, that because of Jesus we are able to tap into that everlasting love and glory even today. Lord, I ask that each of us in this family would experience a touch of your glory today, and find a new sense of perspective and hope in the immeasurable glory to come!
In Jesus' Name,


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