Wednesday, January 6, 2010

My Rock!




As I sit here tonight looking at my screen I am conflicted about what to write!

It was a great day with lots of therapy. Makenzie did great!

To some degree that is the problem! LOL!

Why, you may ask, could that possibly be a problem? The answer is a bit complex and attached to a ton of emotion and inner confusion! I will however try to explain.... here it goes....

The last few days Makenzie seems like a whole new girl. Her body has felt different. Her emotions have been different. Her interactions with her environment are different. Her communication has been different. All of these differences are in the REALLY GOOD direction! I would try to elaborate but I really can't! (my club of special needs mommys... you get that right? )

So why? Ypur guess is as good as mine but here is my guess.....

We did the intensive session of ABM last week and I truly believe that is what has brought this all on. We did the stem cells that gave Makenzie the extra cognition to be able to more readily take in this new therapy... among MANY other things the stem cells healed. The traditional therapy including the NAPA Center that has kept her body in one piece so that when her brain does make connections, in therapy or out side of therapy, it can work her body the way God intended it to.

So with that said... where do you go from here? (that is the inner confusion)

Tonight, I called my brother to ask for help setting something up on my computer. We got into a long conversation about life. He is such an out of the box thinker and most of the time he makes a lot of since. However,now my brain is on over drive!

Here is the long and the short of where we go from here.....
This year we need to do another round of Stem Cells... We need to go to see Anat Baniel at least once if not more... We need to decide what therapy we will do after stem cells....we need to continue ABM here with a local practitioner.... We need to get a modified van....

Then.....(in the near future)

There is the need to move into a house without stairs, put 3 kids through college, continue therapy with Makenzie, pay for teenage drivers, have some sort of plan for my future, and of course be prepared for all of the stuff that just comes up.

Did I mention that when I get to thinking about all of this my brain begins to HURT!!!

So I try not to. Reality is that there needs to be a plan. Even if it can not all be addressed right now. A loose knit plan would be nice! This is my reality! It is very real! God is walking with me and my family, he continues to provide, and I shall not fear but...... I am also human.

After talking to my out of the box brother I actually feel better about some of it. He was able to offer me some thoughts that I had never even considered. He made me remember that God is in control. That he will not let me fall. Even thought the decimal point after the dollar sign is in a really scary place right now it will all work out!

So today was a GREAT day. Makenzie seems like a whole new girl....

and

THAT IS SOOOOOO NOT A PROBLEM!!!

We're dreaming BIG baby girl!!!

"The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."

Dear Heavenly Father,
There are times when our situation can seem overwhelming and impossible. How wonderful it is in times such as those to know that you are our deliverer. We thank you, Lord, that you delivered us first from the most impossible of situations, which is death, hell, and the grave. We thank you that through the blood of Jesus, we have been delivered into eternal life. We thank you that you also deliver us from overwhelming situations while we are living here on earth. We ask that you would especially deliver Makenzie from anything that is afflicting her. We also pray that you would establish a fortress of protection around this family. We pray that any and all fiery darts of the enemy would be extinguished. Help us to be faithful and obedient to you so that you can work mightily on our behalf.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
(Psalm 18:2)

Believe.... Prayer Works!

Please also continue to pray for my grandpa! He is such a fighter!!! Pray for healing!!!

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